A few weeks ago at dinner, E asked about the prenatal vitamins I was taking. I told him about how the baby can’t eat its own food the way he does, so it shares mine. He announced – not for the first time – that he was also with child. E: I have a baby…
Tag: pregnancy
Everything is fine!
You wonderful people made me totally cry last night (and today) – in a good way. I can’t believe how lucky I am to have your support. Thank you thank you thank you. And you were right, for the moment at least: all good on the uterine/fetal front. I was gonna say “all quiet”, but…
Anxiety Sucks
Hello, beautiful Di-hards. I’m freaking out a little bit. I mean, I’m not hyperventilating or feeling faint or anything. I’m pretty sure you can’t tell by looking at me (unless you catch me at very specific moments). Tomorrow, baby-in-progress is scheduled to have a fetal ECG (echocardiogram) at the hospital. Which is great – it’s…
Expect Miracles
This is a picture of the bracelet I have been wearing every day in 2012, in the hopes that its auspicious message would sink in, beyond my skin, to my soul. This January, when I found out that I was indeed pregnant with our third child, I experienced a split-second of pure, undiluted joy. The…
Thinking about Jesus’ Mama
I was brought up Quaker, Christian in a mild sort of way. We didn’t talk lots about Jesus, but we knew what Christmas was meant to be about. We did Christmas pageants, we sang carols, we read the Bible story of the birth of Jesus every year. (Of course, we also read ‘Twas the Night…
Every gal has her limit
As I said in my last post, Sean and I were off on Friday because we had an appointment. It happened to be an appointment at an out-of-town hospital, to speak to a specialist about Sebastian’s autopsy. In the past three-and-a-half months, I have discovered that, fortunately for me, I am not very susceptible to…
Day One: Bereaved Parents
It is strange to think back to Friday, June 8th. For one thing, I can’t believe it’s already been twelve days since then. For another, I can’t believe it’s only been twelve days since then. But above all, it was an inherently strange day. We left the hospital with our painful news and a prescription…
A different kind of blog
It looks like my blog will have a different tone for a while, and serve a different purpose. One week ago was the last evening that my baby Sebastian, still in my womb, was alive. On Friday morning, sometime between 9 and 10, his heart stopped beating. I knew from that moment that I would…
A Two-Year-Old’s Bedtime Stories
I’m pretty grumpy. A) I’ve just spent the last hour-and-a-half trying everything I can think of to get my toddler to sleep (I guess I should be glad he usually goes to bed without incident, but we didn’t get to that stage without a fair bit of work); B) I was trying to write a…
Hypes and Gripes – June 2011
Gripe: My blog DISAPPEARING for a week. Now that I’ve looked at my stats, I can see that it was a blank, unviewable page for seven whole days (even though I didn’t realize it for the first few). Scary. Hype: It’s back! My daddy fixed it!! Yay! Dear blog, I apologize for updating your plugins…