This is Ben Sollee. He is a special guy who plays the cello (awesomely). Part of his bio on bensollee.com says this: …In 2010, Ben embarked on the “Ditch The Van Tour.” Ben and his band abandoned the comforts of a motorized vehicle and hauled their gear and instruments (yep, the cello too) across the…
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Family Camp
We arrived home from Family Camp about 25 hours ago. E was such an incredibly good boy all day yesterday (in spite of having decided he’s definitely two years old all of a sudden – also in spite of pouring rain, being stuck in the backpack while Mommy swept floors, not being able to go…
Day One, Part II
[Note to readers: This has been the hardest post for me to write. It may be the same to read. Just thought you should know.] Sean and I both feel very lucky to live in the time and place we do. Here in Ontario, in 2011, if an extra ultrasound is offered or asked for,…
Day One: Bereaved Parents
It is strange to think back to Friday, June 8th. For one thing, I can’t believe it’s already been twelve days since then. For another, I can’t believe it’s only been twelve days since then. But above all, it was an inherently strange day. We left the hospital with our painful news and a prescription…
Expecting the unexpected
Sebastian was a surprise pregnancy. Ovum and spermatazoon meeting clandestinely when their parents least suspected. Upon losing him, it was inevitable that I would go back and remember the little things that suddenly seem big. I feel awful for that moment, however brief, when I knew for sure I was pregnant and panicked a little…
A different kind of blog
It looks like my blog will have a different tone for a while, and serve a different purpose. One week ago was the last evening that my baby Sebastian, still in my womb, was alive. On Friday morning, sometime between 9 and 10, his heart stopped beating. I knew from that moment that I would…
A Two-Year-Old’s Bedtime Stories
I’m pretty grumpy. A) I’ve just spent the last hour-and-a-half trying everything I can think of to get my toddler to sleep (I guess I should be glad he usually goes to bed without incident, but we didn’t get to that stage without a fair bit of work); B) I was trying to write a…
Hypes and Gripes – June 2011
Gripe: My blog DISAPPEARING for a week. Now that I’ve looked at my stats, I can see that it was a blank, unviewable page for seven whole days (even though I didn’t realize it for the first few). Scary. Hype: It’s back! My daddy fixed it!! Yay! Dear blog, I apologize for updating your plugins…
Oh, Internet, you’re SO FUNNY!
Have you ever noticed how The Internet is chronically self-referential, using mostly itself for fodder? Sometimes I think it’s like an incestuous alternate universe where we think we’re humans on Earth but we’re all just playing into the system of the real world, THE WEB. (Oops, suddenly sounding like a Keanu Reeves movie. Sorry.) Please…
To My Son on His Second Birthday
Dear E, Today you are two years old. As I begin to write this, it’s 9:27 p.m., which means that at this time two years ago, you were four minutes old. I knew right away that the 45 hours of pain I’d just finished were well worth it, and I feel that way more than…