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Calling for Love in the Age of Global Bullying

Posted on November 10th, 2016

The dust is settling. We know it’s not just a bad dream. The unthinkable has come to pass. That Trump dude is now the US President-Elect… and I think I’ve figured out why. I don’t mean why in terms of the Electoral College (which I make no claim to understand), or in terms of voter turnout (though there’s […]

Five Years to Miss You

Posted on July 9th, 2016

Dear Sebastian, It’s now five years since your birth day; five years and about thirty-seven hours since your heart beat last. There is something about this year that has made my baby memories extra-vivid. I have thought of you so much this spring. I feel your days coming the first time the weather gets hot. Despite seemingly constant […]

#NaBloPoMo, Day 17: Grateful for #LoveOverFear

Posted on November 17th, 2015

Yesterday, after a weekend of global shock and grief and feverish discussion over the Paris attacks, a Toronto woman was attacked from behind by two men while on her way to pick up her children at school. They pulled violently on her head scarf, took her down and beat her up. They accused her of being […]

Four Years Remembering You In This House

Posted on July 13th, 2015

Dear Sebastian, Last week, it was four years since your death and birth. As always, we love you to the heavens and back, and miss you all the time. We have bought a new house. We will be moving to it at the end of the summer, and we are all really excited about it. Your […]

Sometimes it’s hard to find words.

Posted on January 12th, 2015

Dear Sebastian, I hope you enjoyed the music yesterday. I loved listening, and feeling so close to you. The three women whose voices delivered our lullaby were singing with you in their hearts, thanks to the initiative of my dear friend C, who loves the song and felt that it should be shared in person. I haven’t been […]

Things I’ve Learned About Being A Baby Loss Mama – Three Years Later

Posted on October 15th, 2014

It’s October 15th: Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. On July 9th, 2011, as you know, our Sebastian was stillborn at 35.5 weeks’ gestation. I have learned things, since then, about mothering an invisible child. Although I don’t presume to speak for other babylost parents here, some will relate. It gets easier. Functioning day-to-day, compartmentalizing to […]

Three Years.

Posted on July 9th, 2014

Dear Sebastian, It’s been hard to write today. Not just because thinking of you can be hard. It’s also difficult to find the time, with your brother and sister around, and life being the overwhelming To-Do list that it is. I feel drained, and the words feel awkward under my fingers. It’s been three years […]

Writer’s Flood Paralysis and the Blogging Shame Spiral (a.k.a. excuses)

Posted on May 5th, 2014

What the Sam Hill… I haven’t posted since April 22nd?? Lots of bloggers complain about writer’s block and lack of inspiration. (Fortunately, lots of other bloggers offer solutions for both.) I can imagine getting blocked, if you’re a niche blogger. Some days you just might not have that kicky recipe or new fitness tip or […]

How Fine the Line

Posted on January 26th, 2014

We had awful, awful news at our school last week. A five-year-old girl died after returning home from school one afternoon. One of our own kindergarten students. It’s like a punch in the gut, a slap in the face that makes you see stars, and makes the colours all weirdly bright. Suddenly danger is brilliantly […]

Wishful Thinking for the New Year

Posted on January 1st, 2014

Happy New Year, lovely Di-hards. I’m making wishes today. This one is for you:  I wish for your baby to be born so sweet and healthy that the whole world smiles. And you: I wish for that project you’re working on to grow wings and take off (with you in the pilot seat, of course). And you: I […]

 
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