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Days of Saints and Souls

Posted on November 1st, 2013

Dear Sebastian,

I haven’t written to you as much as I’ve wanted to lately. I didn’t write to you at Thanksgiving, even though I always wish for you at family gatherings. I didn’t write to you on October 15th – Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day – since it was one of those weeks I was barely keeping my head above water. But at such times, I feel that hollow of your absence more deeply, and I wish I could take more time just to think of you.

Today is the first day of November. It’s a day when a lot of people think about their lost loved ones, and celebrate their lives. Your Great-Gramma Sue was born on this date – and now she’s free soul like you. (You probably even hang out with her.)

November is also the time when, for the past two years, I have written a blog post for every day of the month, to challenge myself. This year, I’m going to try a different challenge. Even though life is busier than ever, I’m going to try to carve out a little bit of time every day to work on a project I’ve wanted to do for a long time.

It’s a story about you, a story to read to your brother and sister. Your big brother misses you. I know your sister will wish for you too, when she’s old enough to understand. I want them to have something that helps them think of you and remember that you’re still their brother.

I don’t know how far I’ll be able to get with this project in one month, but I’m hoping to build enough momentum that I can keep going.

So far, it’s in the planning stages, and it looks like this:


It felt good today, to do something all about you, something that’s a little bit like celebrating.

I wish I could squeeze you, sweet boy. I’m sending you hugs from my heart.




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4 Responses to “Days of Saints and Souls”

  1. Yerpa
    1 November, 2013 at 8:33 pm

    You go, my girl!

  2. 1 November, 2013 at 8:38 pm

    oh what a wonderful idea! this warms my heart. XO
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  3. Mama
    1 November, 2013 at 9:02 pm

    I will try to help you find those moments when you can work on the story.

  4. emerge
    2 November, 2013 at 2:29 am

    Oh, how wonderful. I know they will all be lucky to have that story, and I hope writing it is as sad and as good as you need it to be. I love you all SO much.

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