Posted on July 23rd, 2011
[Note to readers: This has been the hardest post for me to write. It may be the same to read. Just thought you should know.] Sean and I both feel very lucky to live in the time and place we do. Here in Ontario, in 2011, if an extra ultrasound is offered or asked for, [...]
Posted on July 20th, 2011
It is strange to think back to Friday, June 8th. For one thing, I can’t believe it’s already been twelve days since then. For another, I can’t believe it’s only been twelve days since then. But above all, it was an inherently strange day. We left the hospital with our painful news and a prescription [...]
Posted on July 17th, 2011
Sebastian was a surprise pregnancy. Ovum and spermatazoon meeting clandestinely when their parents least suspected. Upon losing him, it was inevitable that I would go back and remember the little things that suddenly seem big. I feel awful for that moment, however brief, when I knew for sure I was pregnant and panicked a little [...]
Posted on July 14th, 2011
It looks like my blog will have a different tone for a while, and serve a different purpose. One week ago was the last evening that my baby Sebastian, still in my womb, was alive. On Friday morning, sometime between 9 and 10, his heart stopped beating. I knew from that moment that I would [...]
Posted on July 5th, 2011
I’m pretty grumpy. A) I’ve just spent the last hour-and-a-half trying everything I can think of to get my toddler to sleep (I guess I should be glad he usually goes to bed without incident, but we didn’t get to that stage without a fair bit of work); B) I was trying to write a [...]
